Gained back a bit of weight!! So mad but I'm back on track and I'm putting this behind me. I've been drinking a tonne of water. But man it's tough I'm tempted constantly. Today i had a bite of someone's pizza....it felt sooo good!! Until I felt guilty. Every moment is a test, people always ask if it gets easier and the answer for me personally is no. It doesn't. Every day is different. Some days I don't want to eat at all, and end up with two shakes. Other times I wanna cheat so bad, i give in.
Like last Sunday. My sister and friends were all going out for sushi and I wanted to go out with them. I gave myself permission to cheat a bit. "Just a few rolls of sushi, you dont weigh in till next Friday anyway." And that's where it all begins. I weighed myself the other day and i was up about 3 pounds from last week. I felt horrible, told my family about it, who were all so supportive and encouraging about it all. So I picked myself back up again and decided not to dwell.
I went to the Optifast Support Group on Facebook and confessed. Something i wont do in my local group. It's odd how we just dont seem to click that way. The Support group had some awesome encouraging words and some fantastic advice. DONT LOOK BACK! that's a big one. Ok i cheated. Let's jump back on that band wagon and move forward.
That took care of the emotional aspect of things. But what do i do about this weight? I was told to flush it out. I drank more water than one person ever should and have popped so many meta mucil vitamins that things should be FLYING out of me. But they're not. Which again is another exercise in acceptance. My body will work at it's own pace and i cant change that. But it's hard when you have a goal weight in mind and just want to get there!!
In the meantime i'm practicing self control every day. Ok i had a bite of pizza. There was an entirely uneaten slice of pizza sitting in front of me and i didn't touch it. SO there's a win right? Weigh in tomorrow, i'll post my results in the weight section. Ill be happy with even one pound down from last week. But if that doesnt happen ill just have to try harder for next week.
Keeping positive thoughts ill talk to you guys soon.